JustBhem

I feel like writing but I don't know where to start. Do I need to start on how my weeks goes by? Or do I need to write something about today? urgh! Well, I better start writing about today instead. It's gloomy Monday. And I feel like useless. I have been away from work for almost a week now because of my sickness. I miss work already but my body won't cooperate. I know it's all in the mind and what can I do about it? If stress are too much to handle. Yeah! You're right! I'm so stress these past few weeks. You wanna know why? Don't worry I won't be talking about love anymore. You'll see.  It all started last last week. I was aiming for a good sale for November. I know I tried so hard. And the harder I keep on working the harder I was falling. I end up getting one sale in a day and 20 calls. It's so freakin' frustrate me. So much that my head is aching. I tried different ways to at least have a 3 deals in a day. And I end up losing all t...

" If you love someone, set him free if he comes back then you are really meant to be."  I have been using this quote since the time when I knew love is all about. I have always been a giver not a taker of course. All my life all I ever wanted is to feel love and be loved in return. I am sucker of loves affection. I never imagined myself having a good boyfriend and a perfect relation. I just want to have fun-loving partner that can keep up with my mood swings. But I guess I have no luck when it comes to love. (sigh) I finally close everything what I started for. I gave him his freedom. It's painful though but I need to do it for the sake of everything. If I knew before that loving someone is really not that easy I wouldn't bothered experience it. But I am only human. not perfect and flawed. This is what we called Life.  I cried as if there's no tomorrow, my eyes are swelling already. I need to get rid of the pain inside my chest. I needed someone to talk ...

" Loving someone is like kissing the rain and embracing the sun. Its like heaven. " - Bhem - I experienced love and being loved in return. They all been so wonderful. But unlike those stories in the fairy tale, mine don't have a happy ending.  When I asked God to have him. I was the happiest girl in my age. I thanked God for granted me prayers. It was so soon though. I always gave thanks everyday because I'm so happy. Our story is the unique of all the love stories I have. We are friends that turned to me be more than that. Everybody loves what we have become some other criticize but I don't give a dime. I was too blinded of the fact that I am happy, that I am contented of I have.  Months passed and years fading. For 2 long years of being together we argued on simple things though we keep up after the fight. All I can think is its nature for lovers to experienced ups and downs in a relationship. We developed hating each other. I got pregnant. That was t...

I quote " One word frees us all weight and pain in Life, that word is LOVE."  What a wonderful feeling it is to feel love and be loved in return. It such a blessing for me after all what I have been through.  I know this is not yet my happy ending but I know deep down inside me He is the one that I will love to get old with. Sound so awkward but its true and the hell I care. *wink* October 04, 2012 > that's our 34Th Monthsary. Its memorable for me because this is the first time that we are able to celebrate it with his own penny. I really do have an ideal date kind of thing. Like dinner in a fancy Resto bar with a nice ambiance, reggae songs on top of the beat. That would be wonderful!  But that's not what I thought its gonna be. We simply do our thing. Like going to a Mall, have dinner and watched movie. That's simple are we. Just like the old days when we were just friends. I laughed and smile remembering how our relationship grows. It's amazing a...

You've just unfriend by someone! woah! what a slap in my face. It was June of this year. I have known her as my boyfriend's ex. She was the one who asked for a friend request. I did not know her existence until such time my boyfriend told me things about her. Like their break up and how it was ended. I was amaze or excited perhaps would be the best thing to describe it. Because for some reason I am excited to know her more. We became friends for almost a year, exchanging comments and sort of things, even thoughts of wisdom and  life experiences.  Until such time that I felt that awkward feeling towards her. She is not commenting anymore to all my wall post. Then she always ignored me already. I asked her one time by telling her I had a dream. I asked her if we are okay. She said we are okay. But then again that awkward feeling again.  Then she blocked me after few days. Its a slap and an insult to me. I know I don't have right to get mad but down deep in me I f...