JustBhem

" The universe is transformation; our life is what our thoughts make it. " Since when was the last time I posted here? Maybe if you will count, it must be ages ago. Anyway, I'm here now. Back to what it is like to write here.  I recall for the past months, I'm becoming more progressive. It must be the experiences that taught me. It really helps a lot.  But lately is odd, I'm becoming oblivion like I tend to forgot things. I wonder why. Is it maybe because I think a lot? Or is over work? Is this a sign that I need to tend to myself and have some hot coffee over in a new place?  Or maybe because I'm tired of searching for that one true love? I kept looking for my own happiness that I even forgot how to smile and wonder to all the beauty around me. Hate is what I become. I really don't like to go back from that awful self where hating is the only feelings I know.  Whatever it is, I just need to deal with it and I know God will provide me all my n...

Some people say that life is unfair, but then we choose to live the life we want.  I've been into a lot of troubles, maybe since the moment my parents gave birth to me. All I ever knew was, everything will be easy as counting the numbers from 1 to 10 or as easy as memorizing the ABC's. I thought everything would be easy as I grew up. I've learned so many things in life, like I learned to compete with everyone, I learned to communicate and make friends with anybody. And the most bravest part of growing old is, learning how to LOVE.  I love because I want to experience how to be loved in return. And it was awesome learning though. Then came the word HATE. Hate helps me forget how to love. Yes. I was in pain after knowing that love can hurt me pretty bad that I almost lost my life.  Its been so long that I never encountered the feeling. Though I knew that someone can love me or someone out there is waiting for me. I learn to get away and moved on. Those experiences...