JustBhem

" The universe is transformation; our life is what our thoughts make it. " Since when was the last time I posted here? Maybe if you will count, it must be ages ago. Anyway, I'm here now. Back to what it is like to write here.  I recall for the past months, I'm becoming more progressive. It must be the experiences that taught me. It really helps a lot.  But lately is odd, I'm becoming oblivion like I tend to forgot things. I wonder why. Is it maybe because I think a lot? Or is over work? Is this a sign that I need to tend to myself and have some hot coffee over in a new place?  Or maybe because I'm tired of searching for that one true love? I kept looking for my own happiness that I even forgot how to smile and wonder to all the beauty around me. Hate is what I become. I really don't like to go back from that awful self where hating is the only feelings I know.  Whatever it is, I just need to deal with it and I know God will provide me all my n...

What is it to write here when no one wants to read this.  Here I am again, writing the what so called feelings. Yup. I have feelings for a friend and he doesn't know that. He only see me as a friend, not much but just a friend. When he look at me, does he sees my glowing eyes that sparks for him? Does he sees or hear my heart pumping fast everytime he's near me? Does he know how cool it is to be around him? Well, probably not. Insensitive he might be.