Look who's back with a BANG!

And I'm back here.
The last time I fueled this page was last year.
What's new? Same thing the usual.
I'm still the sick me.
How I wish I can tell myself, hey' I'm back from the normal person I am. The happy outgoing me.

Actually, there is something new about me.
I'm no longer the person who likes to go outside, instead, I'm becoming a cavewoman. The only place where I'm comfortable walking around in the center where I have my treatment. Since I was confined last April and June, my body became proportional, my face is kind of bloated and I'm having a hard time standing straight and even walking straight. I know that these are the changes you have once your body is no longer having the mutual understanding of all the components needed in your body. This year, my calcium was less, phosphorous is still high - when can I get this lower. I did a test for my iPTh and I've got 500 plus which is not as bad as they said but my body is getting weaker and I'm still having body ache.

Sometimes I'm thinking that this is the beginning of myself in a dying phase. Then I remove the thought and I keep myself believing that one day when I wake up, I will be okay and that God will heal me. That I can go one with this treatment as long as I'm okay. No more body aches and I can walk straight just like before.

I was too harsh, I know for not taking good care of myself but I'm thinking the other way. I always think of the other way.

By the way, here's a copy of myself.

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