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" If you love someone, set him free if he comes back then you are really meant to be." 

 I have been using this quote since the time when I knew love is all about. I have always been a giver not a taker of course. All my life all I ever wanted is to feel love and be loved in return. I am sucker of loves affection. I never imagined myself having a good boyfriend and a perfect relation. I just want to have fun-loving partner that can keep up with my mood swings. But I guess I have no luck when it comes to love. (sigh)

 I finally close everything what I started for. I gave him his freedom. It's painful though but I need to do it for the sake of everything. If I knew before that loving someone is really not that easy I wouldn't bothered experience it. But I am only human. not perfect and flawed. This is what we called Life. 

 I cried as if there's no tomorrow, my eyes are swelling already. I need to get rid of the pain inside my chest. I needed someone to talk but no one is there for me. I am all alone now. Then I prayed. I asked God's guidance and enlighten me with everything that's happened to  me. 

 I am entertaining pain and sadness again. Wishing to bring back what was gone. Bring back what was mine. 
This is my second heartbreak and the most painful series of unfortunate event. 

 But I wont lose hope because of that. I still have plenty of time to think about to live about. I know one day  I will be happy again. In time. 

 - Bhem - 

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