JustBhem

I really love being alive. I can eat my favorite icecream,watching fireworks,raising your hands on rollercoaster,getting good grades you work hard for,childhood memories,going on a long walks,singing your heart out,dancing forhours,climb the highest peak,walking barefoot in the sand,your first jump in pool in the summer,shopping and buying your new clothes,facebook creeping,waking up in the morning,being texted first,listening to a meaningful song or lyrics,go on for a family trips,long summer nights,listening to the sound of the rain,wearing my chuck shoes in the office,loving the color red,green and yellow,swimming,wonderful world,whispering,hugging the one you love,having a long walks with him,wanderlust,when you know someone likes you too,that one person you can talk to about everything,sleeping for more than 10 hours,knowing the 7 new wonders of nature,seeing a new life born,watching the 80's movies,wearing bracelets and anklets,being inked,piercings,fishtail braids,dreaming o...

As anyone else in this world none of us wants to die young and unaccomplished. Unless if you want to be just like Bella Swan. In order for you to live more you should have a vampire and a very rich boyfriend for you to turn into one of them. sound creepy but for me I'd like to try that and live longer.. I know that someday my time will be over. My candle may not be lit anymore. I may not able to build my own family and see my brothers and their wives, or even their children. I almost get carried away with the thought of losing myself. I cried for sometimes. And when I see my mother and father living together, it gives me hope to strive for long life. I know its all up to me to neglect all those bad things and and bad habits just to make my life more meaningfull. For the last 28 years of my existence. I considered those years as one of my achievement. You wanna know why? That because I'm to live this long and I'm thankful for that. I'm able to see love and experienced it...

Sayonara 2011 welcome 2012.. How will you clasp 2012 with an open arms? Well for me, lets just see what might happen along the way. 2011 is a year full of remonstrance and misquote. But I surpassed them all with the help of our mighty God and for those people who never gave up on me. Keep believing in me though I have a lot of fall downs. Thank God I manage them with two hands. I can say that life is unfair for those people who doesn't have the spirit to believe in Him. But its a great year full of remembrance,hardships,trials and tribulation. Hopefully 2012 will give me the best of myself, not only for me but also to those people who loves me. To my family,friends,relatives and to my beloved. Thank you so so much of being a part of my 2011. I'll be forever grateful.

" The universe is transformation; our life is what our thoughts make it. " Since when was the last time I posted here? Maybe if you will count, it must be ages ago. Anyway, I'm here now. Back to what it is like to write here.  I recall for the past months, I'm becoming more progressive. It must be the experiences that taught me. It really helps a lot.  But lately is odd, I'm becoming oblivion like I tend to forgot things. I wonder why. Is it maybe because I think a lot? Or is over work? Is this a sign that I need to tend to myself and have some hot coffee over in a new place?  Or maybe because I'm tired of searching for that one true love? I kept looking for my own happiness that I even forgot how to smile and wonder to all the beauty around me. Hate is what I become. I really don't like to go back from that awful self where hating is the only feelings I know.  Whatever it is, I just need to deal with it and I know God will provide me all my n...

Dying.Death.Gone.. If I heard someone is dying. I can't help myself asking why someone needs to die?  Why do we need to leave our body?  Where is our soul going?  Then I remember my Mother told me that, people needs to die so that they can have another life somewhere else. Then a whisper coming from my own self saying, do I need to die too?  Who wants to die? I guess nobody wants to die. They want to live. I want to live more. To see the beauty of life and the people I love growing old with me.  Just as I notice myself crying. Then I remember everything, every details on how he died. I hate myself for not being with him when he is about to lose his breath.  How will I ever forget him when all I can think about him is happiness.  Happiness every time we're together.  So many things I need to say to you but I can't say them anymore.  But let me say this to you that you're a friend I can lean on every time I'm sad.  Eve...