JustBhem

I'm listening to Tori Amos, Sleeps with Butterflies. While listening, I found myself envisage that I'm no longer sleeping with butterflies anymore.  I'm no longer grasping the awful feeling of pain. Its like I am free of worries that pain wont hurt me anymore. I can now breathe the freshest air.  For the past 2 years, I can tell that I no longer seeing the appalling pieces of my shattered dreams. I'm so thankful for the new found freedom within me. Its like a free bird. A flower that wherever the wind blows that's where my petals falls.  There's more to life if you let yourself see it with your eyes wide open.  If someone hurt you, don't take it as if your life ends there. Everything happens for a reason, maybe that reason is for you to look at the blazing side of your own choice. Your own life. Life teaches us to be strong, to bend, to make use of our knowledge. Life is never easy, its always associated with pain. Just like your Mother gave birth to ...

Its been awhile since I haven't written anything here.  After taking time to open this blog, it reminds me that I need to fill up the space.  To start with. Actually I don't know where I should start.  Anyway, I didn't know how it happened. It just happened so fast like a lightning bolt.  There was me and there was him.  Do I need to say more? Such a wonderful year to start with my new life.  Having someone who can fill up the space in your heart is such a blessing. Who says that God wont hear our prayers? He answered mine.  My God didn't forsaken me after all what I've been through.  For all the troubles I have from the past it pays a lot if you're patient enough to pray.  For whatever reason answered my prayers, I will forever cherish.  Bhem08

I don't know what exactly happened, one thing I remembered is, I was in the arm of somebody that I used to know so much. I don't know how to express the feeling of being whole again that time. Something in me rose from within and it cut me open and bang! it did hit me big time. First, I feel the pain that cut my wound then followed by the sad thought that It only happened for one reason. clinically with purpose. Aside from that, nothing. Sad thought comes rushing I feel like crying and hurting at the same time. I don't know what to say nor do. It just I feel too much hurting from within.Then I wanted to be alone...

I really really love their tandem. They look good  together ... So these are for my eyes only .... /> and this is something ...

It will come to pass the ending of this year. I wonder what would be my life after, is it a new love or new set of friends. If this is the case then I need to choose my fate. Love will wait, friends will come and go. Well, definitely new career will do. I will work hard for my future. I know I've been so lazy because of no one to consider to enlighten me. If only I have inspiration, why not. Nonetheless I have no one to call my own. Will definitely focus on myself instead and of course with work. That's a good priority. Love can wait and it just around the corner. Friends come and go, and those who are real will stay. Happy new year everyone!