My beautiful escape ...

I'm listening to Tori Amos, Sleeps with Butterflies. While listening, I found myself envisage that I'm no longer sleeping with butterflies anymore.
I'm no longer grasping the awful feeling of pain. Its like I am free of worries that pain wont hurt me anymore. I can now breathe the freshest air.

For the past 2 years, I can tell that I no longer seeing the appalling pieces of my shattered dreams. I'm so thankful for the new found freedom within me.
Its like a free bird. A flower that wherever the wind blows that's where my petals falls.

There's more to life if you let yourself see it with your eyes wide open.
If someone hurt you, don't take it as if your life ends there. Everything happens for a reason, maybe that reason is for you to look at the blazing side of your own choice. Your own life. Life teaches us to be strong, to bend, to make use of our knowledge. Life is never easy, its always associated with pain. Just like your Mother gave birth to you. They never gave up on us.
So never gave up yours because you'll be doing the same thing.

As for me, I don't know where my life leads me.
All I know for sure is, it will be brighter.
As long as we're together, holding each other, everything will be alright.

Bhem08

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