JustBhem

It will come to pass the ending of this year. I wonder what would be my life after, is it a new love or new set of friends. If this is the case then I need to choose my fate. Love will wait, friends will come and go. Well, definitely new career will do. I will work hard for my future. I know I've been so lazy because of no one to consider to enlighten me. If only I have inspiration, why not. Nonetheless I have no one to call my own. Will definitely focus on myself instead and of course with work. That's a good priority. Love can wait and it just around the corner. Friends come and go, and those who are real will stay. Happy new year everyone!

I am one of them ............

After spending my 4 days with him, I thought changes will follow afterwards. Like we'll be together again and continue the love that we once had. Sad to say, its not like that. I'm hurting once again because of too much assumption. Now, I realized that would be too much if I let him hurt me again. I need to get out of this mess.  The idea of crying out loud is the best I can do and for the second time around. I am badly beaten. I still keep myself believing that there would be me and him.  Bhem08

I cant understand the feelings that are hovering inside me now. Its the same feeling I have felt before. I dreaded the day to come that you will see me and tell me of how you feel about me. I cant stand it because somehow I know that you feel the same way too but why hiding it from me? Am I too old for you to show your real feelings? or is it your standards that so high?  Just let me know how you want me to be the way you want it.. I can be whatever you want me, just let me know. I dont know this feeling, so strange than the past I have. I found no reason nor words to describe how I longed to feel your skin that touches mine.  I want to see the laughter , the smile , the innocent face that you have.  Like the song " whenever Im with you, you make me feel young again " that kind of feeling that I can never resist. I think of you , night and day. A friend told me, if he doesn't seemed to care then let it go and move on, he's not worth it for your time and you s...