Let it go or Let me go..

I cant understand the feelings that are hovering inside me now. Its the same feeling I have felt before.
I dreaded the day to come that you will see me and tell me of how you feel about me. I cant stand it because somehow I know that you feel the same way too but why hiding it from me? Am I too old for you to show your real feelings? or is it your standards that so high?
Just let me know how you want me to be the way you want it..
I can be whatever you want me, just let me know.

I dont know this feeling, so strange than the past I have. I found no reason nor words to describe how I longed to feel your skin that touches mine.
I want to see the laughter , the smile , the innocent face that you have.
Like the song " whenever Im with you, you make me feel young again " that kind of feeling that I can never resist. I think of you , night and day.

A friend told me, if he doesn't seemed to care then let it go and move on, he's not worth it for your time and you see how he takes you for granted. The truth hurts, really hurts. When can I freed from this awful feeling of being hurt again and again?

Then my heart whispers, give it another change..
Pot luck!

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