JustBhem

I don't know what exactly happened, one thing I remembered is, I was in the arm of somebody that I used to know so much. I don't know how to express the feeling of being whole again that time. Something in me rose from within and it cut me open and bang! it did hit me big time. First, I feel the pain that cut my wound then followed by the sad thought that It only happened for one reason. clinically with purpose. Aside from that, nothing. Sad thought comes rushing I feel like crying and hurting at the same time. I don't know what to say nor do. It just I feel too much hurting from within.Then I wanted to be alone...

I really really love their tandem. They look good  together ... So these are for my eyes only .... /> and this is something ...

It will come to pass the ending of this year. I wonder what would be my life after, is it a new love or new set of friends. If this is the case then I need to choose my fate. Love will wait, friends will come and go. Well, definitely new career will do. I will work hard for my future. I know I've been so lazy because of no one to consider to enlighten me. If only I have inspiration, why not. Nonetheless I have no one to call my own. Will definitely focus on myself instead and of course with work. That's a good priority. Love can wait and it just around the corner. Friends come and go, and those who are real will stay. Happy new year everyone!

I am one of them ............

After spending my 4 days with him, I thought changes will follow afterwards. Like we'll be together again and continue the love that we once had. Sad to say, its not like that. I'm hurting once again because of too much assumption. Now, I realized that would be too much if I let him hurt me again. I need to get out of this mess.  The idea of crying out loud is the best I can do and for the second time around. I am badly beaten. I still keep myself believing that there would be me and him.  Bhem08