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Why I hate her..

I scarecely talked to my mom. Because every time we talked or if I have something to say, she's not interested. Like I'm talking to a dead meat. I thought she is just tired or her mind is out there but it's not. She's really not interested. So I figured out that I will not ever gonna talk to her ever. One thing also is, if there is a gossip spreading over our place, juiceko! Her ears will fly.

I really dont understand my mom. Like she is from some planet. She don't care about us or even if she cares, it's not real. Like napilitan lang sya. Her gestured are fake. And just to let you know that I don't have a closed relationship with mom. She's a witch you know.

When I was a kid. I used to call her WITCH because she always in a wrath with everybody around the house. She wants thing to be okay. And I so hated her when she always nagged me about almost everything. Also she don't want me to go with my father every time my father wants to buy me something. I think she get jealous of me.

Kinsa ba gud inahan ang mag selos sa anak niya oi. Hey! But I know who. It's my Mother!

I think my mom was not ready when she married my father. And as for my father, he wasn't ready as well.

This is what you get if you are not ready in commiting yourself into a bigger responsibility. You'll get your kids in the middle of a situation where you cannot handle your own distress. Because marriage is a lifetime and fulltime responsibility until you have white hair. You are bond by a covenant called marriage and it is a lifetime. But my mother  don't understand it.

She is a coward but confident.
She is strong but we know she is weak inside. She is very bad and seldom we find goods in her. Sometimes.

Sometimes I hate her. But that doesn't mean I like her. What she did to me is a scar that will kept  bleeding everytime I see her. She's not a good mother. She is not.

If you dont like this. please ask me. why I hate my mother..

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