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Sleepless nights

I can't contain the joy I am feeling at the moment while I'm still in a torment. Like I'm caught in a web full of emotions and anxiety. Yes! It's me wandering around, looking for a place to hide and cry.

It's been ages now that I'm still having this wound of my being very hard headed. My Doctor told me I should not take any food that will cause my Phosphorous to hit its high limit. Plus another agony is my rashes all over my body that caused me sleepless nights. Its really bothersome waking up in the middle of the night itching. And what worst is never go back to sleep. I hate it!

Another torment is my medicine of very expensive. Hays. If only these meds are free, I would definitely take them every day. Like I'm saving for this. Hays.

The truth is, I'm a little bit happy because I got myself another stressful job and that is to sell. Yup! I'm putting up another online business and luckily, its getting the hit of it. Got a lot of inquiries and a bit of orders and its okay by the way. Because the little you got orders the more customer will trust you and will flock soon your items. Which is kinda helping me to fight stress at the same time. I almost kill my precious time in social media, why give in to some possibilities and that is by having an online shop. Though I'm having a not much profit about it and the the thought that its helping me not to stress myself in pain. This is a lot better.

I think this for now. I will try my very best to go back to sleep. 

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