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Me talking about life..

My life is never been easy. Like, I can die now and revive later kind of thing. That I can be okay and later on I'm not. I cannot predict what will happen next. I'm afraid. So afraid then I will try my best not to feel afraid. I know death will come to me. It can be now or tomorrow or the next day. Who knows?

That is why being happy at the moment with those people near to me is the best remedy for keeping me alive. I am not always like this very sentimental but this sickness taught me a lot. That I needed to be strong for the people who prayed and cared for me. For the people who loved me and never hesitated to make me feel special. To that one person who is my source of strength.

I really don't care about what other people say. But hey' I'm not that insensitive though. Sometimes I feel all eyes are in me. Because I have a huge viens in my right hand that I look like a monster to other kids. But who cares? I can forgive kids because I know they have this very curious and playful minds but other people who always talks about me. Nah. They don't know pain yet. But I don't pray for them to be like this. I hope that they will make their lives better.

Seriously. It annoys me. You know whenever I see statuses about how grateful they are having a good partner, who always give them their likes. OMG! To note they are not yet in the half way of a glorious relationship. Like I can post a comment and tell them 'DAGHAN PAMO UG MAAGIAN!' but I cannot because I don't want to spoil their life with my bitterness kind of thing.

I mean I'm talking about life here, right? We can be ourselves. We can do better and be bitter at times because we are just human. We can say whatever we want to say. Life is also about pleasuring yourself with good and bad stuff. We can do it both. Throwing bad words to people which is you feel good about it. I know its bad but again, we are human. We are born to make mistakes. And mistakes sometimes serve us lesson.

Okay. I don't know where these coming from. I don't know if it's me talking or the one that is sick. Anyway. No one tries to read this so who cares!

Its better to fill this portion here. :)


What say you?



xoxo
Bhem ♡♡♡



Do I look better here?  By the way I love the checkered and the nerdy look thingy. 



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