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Envy

"Envy consumes nothing but it's own heart. It is a kind of admiration for those whom you least want to praise."

Okay. I guess this message slap me in the face. I'm no denial when it comes to being envious, but in a good way that I didn't take it as a bad idea. It's more of a inspiration for me that to be like them I need to stand on my own and do my best shot.

I even can't blame myself for becoming like this. I'm just human. Born to be imperfect and flawed. And becoming a sick person is the sickess sickening illness I've got.

Ever since I belonged to this no cure sickness, I already setup my mind that in order to get use of this I need to be cool, do the things I want and live my life at peace which what I'm currently been doing now. And I'm telling you, it's so hard but I know with God's good graces I will be able to rise.

Well being envious I think is not a bad idea if you lool at it as a positive way to be better and not be bitter. Bitterness will only make you rot and dry.


#JustBhem ;) wink wink..


Here's a pic for today. Haha. My breakfast, the usual way - fried eggs and my forever love, coffee! Excuse the tomatoes.. :)

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