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I don't know what exactly happened, one thing I remembered is, I was in the arm of somebody that I used to know so much. I don't know how to express the feeling of being whole again that time. Something in me rose from within and it cut me open and bang! it did hit me big time. First, I feel the pain that cut my wound then followed by the sad thought that It only happened for one reason. clinically with purpose. Aside from that, nothing. Sad thought comes rushing I feel like crying and hurting at the same time. I don't know what to say nor do. It just I feel too much hurting from within.Then I wanted to be alone...

I really really love their tandem. They look good  together ... So these are for my eyes only .... /> and this is something ...

It will come to pass the ending of this year. I wonder what would be my life after, is it a new love or new set of friends. If this is the case then I need to choose my fate. Love will wait, friends will come and go. Well, definitely new career will do. I will work hard for my future. I know I've been so lazy because of no one to consider to enlighten me. If only I have inspiration, why not. Nonetheless I have no one to call my own. Will definitely focus on myself instead and of course with work. That's a good priority. Love can wait and it just around the corner. Friends come and go, and those who are real will stay. Happy new year everyone!

I am one of them ............

After spending my 4 days with him, I thought changes will follow afterwards. Like we'll be together again and continue the love that we once had. Sad to say, its not like that. I'm hurting once again because of too much assumption. Now, I realized that would be too much if I let him hurt me again. I need to get out of this mess.  The idea of crying out loud is the best I can do and for the second time around. I am badly beaten. I still keep myself believing that there would be me and him.  Bhem08

I cant understand the feelings that are hovering inside me now. Its the same feeling I have felt before. I dreaded the day to come that you will see me and tell me of how you feel about me. I cant stand it because somehow I know that you feel the same way too but why hiding it from me? Am I too old for you to show your real feelings? or is it your standards that so high?  Just let me know how you want me to be the way you want it.. I can be whatever you want me, just let me know. I dont know this feeling, so strange than the past I have. I found no reason nor words to describe how I longed to feel your skin that touches mine.  I want to see the laughter , the smile , the innocent face that you have.  Like the song " whenever Im with you, you make me feel young again " that kind of feeling that I can never resist. I think of you , night and day. A friend told me, if he doesn't seemed to care then let it go and move on, he's not worth it for your time and you s...

What is it to write here when no one wants to read this.  Here I am again, writing the what so called feelings. Yup. I have feelings for a friend and he doesn't know that. He only see me as a friend, not much but just a friend. When he look at me, does he sees my glowing eyes that sparks for him? Does he sees or hear my heart pumping fast everytime he's near me? Does he know how cool it is to be around him? Well, probably not. Insensitive he might be. 

After reading this entire post, for sure you'll get angry with me.  Mom was crying because of me. I am so stupid to make my mother cry. I'm such a bad person. Whatever happened earlier today will serve me a lesson. I didn't know she will take it personally and it was not my intention. I really don't know how to make it up to her. What's been done is done. I felt sorry. I will pray that this would never happen again.  Bhem08

and the result is .... The Chariot Your Tarot Card Reading drew The Chariot Card. Warning this card tells you about future obsticals that will soon face you. This warning advises against overwhelming ambition and high expectations. Giving into these things will lead to a loss of control and chaos in your personal life. Personal flaws in your character and the way you lead your life might also contibute to this period of destructive behavior your about to undergo. Just remember you can always change things for the better, as long as you are open minded.

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What hairstyle should I have .... pin straight hair with bangs You are some one who likes a look that can go from work to casual to party. You are cool with a great look and you like to be different look then others. THIS IS AWESOME AND COOL!!!!! LOVE THIS ....

and hell yeah' this is what I got... The survey says something like this... Bridget Jones for Bridget Jones’s Diary (Renée Zellweger) You are too great for words yet so simple to describe sometimes. You are the girl that secretly everyone is waiting to see and what you crazy life step you are coming out with next. They secretly love your flawed ambitions and quirky style. No one else can do it like you! You are very special to that one man that you may or may have not found yet and he utterly completes you to the most highest. Not that you were not okay on your own…but is it nice to have someone to laugh with even though you are such a great sport being able to laugh at yourself. Go out there and have fun with whatever you do; it is what you have always been great at.

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009), dubbed the " King of Pop ", was an American musician and one of the most commercially successful entertainers of all time. His unique contributions to music and dance, along with a highly publicized personal life, made him a prominent figure in popular culture for four decades. He started a solo career in 1971, having made his debut in 1964 as a member of The Jackson 5 . His 1982 album Thriller remains the best-selling album of all time, with four others — Off the Wall (1979), Bad (1987), Dangerous (1991), and HIStory (1995) — among the best selling. He popularized several physically complicated dance moves, such as the robot and the moonwalk . He is widely credited with having transformed the music video from a promotional tool into an art form, with videos such as " Billie Jean ", " Beat It " and Thriller making him the first African American to amass a strong crossover following on...

I just cant get enough of MJ sooo much. I still can't believe that his gone.I will be forever greatful that somehow he entertain me of his memories , songs and videos. I will never forget him ever in my life... bhem here ... ♥♥♥

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I took the survey about Who is your lifetime match .. and this what I got ... They are born between 22nd December - 20th January Need a good giggle? Then grab hold of one of these lovely people and let them jolly you along through life...but make sure you hold on tight!! Because they need to feel sure of you and your intentions and desire security. They stick to people who stick to them. You seem to be a person who fears about security, how others perceive you and also the future. You need to find this person in your life in order to feel secure. They complete you and you complete them, it's as simple as that. When you first meet them, they will seem cold, but it's only because you don't know them yet. You instinctively want to know more about them and remove their armour. With some reserve, they allow you to, but they also ask for you to reveal your true self and you have no desire to trick them. Your relationship has every chance of lasting because you complete each other...

I Will Love You Forever I love you so deeply, I love you so much, I love the sound of your voice And the way that we touch. I love your warm smile And your kind, thoughtful way, The joy that you bring To my life every day. I love you today As I have from the start, And I'll love you forever With all of my heart. - Amanda Nicole Martinez - All the love that history knows, is said to be in every rose. Yet all that could be found in two, is less than what I feel for you. I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that love is real, and exists in me. ...

All my life I never been this frustrated and determined to find another man that could live with me forever, that could love me like how I wanted to be loved. I had one before but sad to say it did not last and I am thankful because the love that we had thought me a lot of lessons and so heartaches and pains. They say too much is too much, live your life as if nothing happened and think about it as a nightmare. As if I can and as if could but I need to move on. Well, in searching for a perfect man is too complicated this time. I mean I never thought that this would lead me finding that perfect guy. Which is now a days is so complicated. So I created a list of guys that I think will fill my emptiness yay! First : A talented , full of shit! I mean full of life surrounded his being. adorable , easy to love and easy to like , cool as shit and punk, I think we both shared the same likes. Second : I call him my Dude, smart ass indeed , cool and fun to be with , delicious an...

Okay. Below are the best words to describe me. Judge me for all you want, remember this. 'I'm not living for you.' Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

Life is precious , Life is sometimes unfair. This is the truth about Life. I myself afraid to die but that doesn't mean I'm not ready. I still need to the things that I want  in order for me to forget everything, moved on and forget the person who hurt me the most. Being with family and friends is not enough on how to make your life more meaningful , its how you being remembered by those people who cared and loved you . And to my beloved Idol Michael Joseph Jackson ( August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009 ) He was lauded and ridiculed. He broke down barriers and built them around himself. He soared to heights unimaginable with his music, and he made the ignominious front page of gutter tabloids worldwide. For Michael Jackson, the spotlight was always present, and the rest of the world followed . From the time he was a child, it was obvious Michael Jackson was something special It was a young dream that One day I will have a chance to see him in per...

I just simply love watching naruto.. a long with him are his friends and teachers .... narutos closest friend , and narutos crush ... narutos closest friend ...

Megan Denise Fox (born May 16, 1986) is an American actress and model . Fox was born in Oak Ridge, Tennessee to Darlene Tonachio, former Roane County , Tennessee Tourism Director, and Franklin Foxx. Fox's father dropped an "x" from his surname. Fox has one older sister. Fox's parents divorced when she was young and she and her sister were raised by her mother and her stepfather. Fox said of her mother and her stepfather that they "were really strict" and Fox said of her childhood that "I was grounded for all of my childhood. Not most — all” and Fox said that “I wasn’t doing anything particularly crazy,” and that “I just never appreciated authority figures preaching to me.” Fox is of Irish , French and Native American ancestry . Fox grew up in nearby Rockwood, Tennessee and she began her training in drama and dance at age five, in Kingston, Tennessee . She attended a dance class at the community center there and was involved in Kingston Elem...

Some people say that life is unfair, but then we choose to live the life we want.  I've been into a lot of troubles, maybe since the moment my parents gave birth to me. All I ever knew was, everything will be easy as counting the numbers from 1 to 10 or as easy as memorizing the ABC's. I thought everything would be easy as I grew up. I've learned so many things in life, like I learned to compete with everyone, I learned to communicate and make friends with anybody. And the most bravest part of growing old is, learning how to LOVE.  I love because I want to experience how to be loved in return. And it was awesome learning though. Then came the word HATE. Hate helps me forget how to love. Yes. I was in pain after knowing that love can hurt me pretty bad that I almost lost my life.  Its been so long that I never encountered the feeling. Though I knew that someone can love me or someone out there is waiting for me. I learn to get away and moved on. Those experiences...

I am wondering at this very minute if you are > > thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering what is > > taking us so long to find each other. Many times I > > thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned > > by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up > > each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you. > > I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as > > romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it > > possible that I have known you all my life but we have > > yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh > > how I wish you were here right now because you are the > > only one who has the answers to all my questions. > > Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known > > "love". I do not have the answer to that question > > either but I believe that, more often than not, we > > will never really know what love is until we find that > >...

Never Love Unless You Can Bear With All The Faults Of Man. A star can't show its strong Light if not by the darkness of Night. Its when a dark cloud of Life arrives can God shine more in our Lives. There's a happy time of marriage but to every man and wife ; also come the hurts and sorrow and bitterness of LIFE ; for by these your FAITH is tested , tis by these your LOVE shall grow ; and my prayer is LOVE shall guide you. WHERESOVER YOU SHALL GO. Qoud me Nutrit Me Destruit .... what nourishes me destroys me .... what a world of words .... ♥♥♥ bhem ♥♥♥