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Hello 2016!

My first entry for this year.

Daghan kaayo ko'g gusto buhaton sa akong life. You can call me ambitious, don't care. Kay kutob ra man pud kos pangambisyon. So please let me have this moment kay wala mo nasayud sa akong mga pain na naagihan. Okay? Okay.

This year, I started traveling again with my Boyfie and our very own Miolet and of course with our new set of friends. I'm not excited though pero I prepared myself para di nako ma spoil ang moment sa akong Ungas. Although my butt hurts, I tried my very best to act as if nothing is really painful for me. Kay nawung man kog laag, di keri lang. We went to Pantukan by the way, somewhere in Davao Del Norte. I was expecting a paradise kind of thing in that place kay sa kadaghan nice places na meetingan ug inductionan sa Samal, didto gyud tawun sila nangando. Maybe dala na lang pud cguro rides rides. Ana? So as I was saying, I was expecting a Paradise. Ug sa dihang. JuiceColored! Mura man mig naa sa Times Beach man nuon. The area was not so tempting. Though I don't have plans to swim di pud nuon ko molangoy langoy didto kay lage mura lang gyud mig naa sa Times Beach. Abog abog pami and pila ka miles na among na abtan, nangasaag pami para lang ma dismay sa among na adtuan. Well I decided to enjoy myself na lang sa pag back ride back ride. And to feel that I'm alive witnessing the wonderful creation of God sa tanan maagian namu nga scenery.

Daghan mga newbie sa among rides and daghan napud ming mga back riders. Honestly, I don't feel I'm belong kay with all the cotouring faces and beautiful faces murag ma out of place gyud ko. You know naman nga di nata gwapa kay tungod sa atong sakit. Tsk. Mataha ko makig halubilo nila kay mag socialite kaayo silag mga dagway. Unlike me nga murag busabos lang. Chos! Anyway, mao na akong na observed kay you naman me, etchusera biya ko.

Aside sa ride ride. Gusto ko na ma operahan na akong thick veins sa kamot ug sugdan na akong perm cut. Hasolan na gyud tawun ko and I'm afraid basin mo buto raning mga ugat sokems na juicecolored. Basin ma shutetay rakog pina live. Kidding. Bitaw. I really want to end this one kay gusto ko na bisan gina dialysis nako achup ra japun ko tan-awun. Just like anybody else in the center. I want to be their model na ug makita ko nila ma feel nila ang ka wonderful sa life ug mo battle sila sa ka pit-os na among naagian.

Other people may find us pathetic kay tungod ga suffer mi ani among mga suliran. And let me tell them! They don't know the real pain so di gyud sila mag inOA. Ug unta di nila maranasan among naagian. Instead they have to understand us of what we are going through. Other people are so lucky because they can do whatever they want to do in their lives, they can travel and work abroad. Buy those things they want. Travel much as they want. But they don't know na we are still dreaming and hoping of that kind of freedom though we know it's too late for us. Igo na lang mi sa pangambisyon ani kay mao ra gyud among mabuhat.

Bloody! Drama naa kaayo ko.
Ah basta! If given a chance. Someday! I will fulfill what's missing. And experience that wanderlust kind of thing..

Thanks for reading!




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