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Sadness bump me..

I feel sad tonight. Maybe because I'm still sick. Been having cough and flu and fever. Tonight I feel emotional. I remember the past where I used to do normal things. I can run, I can washed clothes, I can cooked and make love. I know there's no turning back and that I should be grateful because I'm still alive. But whenever I remember or see photos of myself, I just can't hold back the sadness. Nagpabaya ako, OO and I blamed myself for that. Tao lang din naman ako. Nagkakamali rin. I have a lot of pagkukulang sa pamilya ko at sa sarili ko. And guess what, I'm paying it until I die.

I know it's useless keep blaming myself. All I should do is keep strong and focus in recovering and be better. Who knows miracle will walk in and bump me. Well if that happens then I'll be the luckiest Dialysis survivor living. I just need to have that faith. I know it will come someday.

Best luck for me!


Wicked sick.. :)
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