I just loved them that's why..

I'm responsible for my actions. Whatever words I utter I am responsible. I'm not blaming anyone for saying those words. I have all the right and I know I am in the position to get mad. I'm also the victim of this charade which some people are playing like a pro.

Everyone like me deserve to tell the truth and they need to listen. I'm not just other people.

I'm one of them.

Its saddened me after what I heard from someone I always look up to not just when I was a kid, even when I'm this age. I always prayed for his safety. The idea of having a perfect family is washed away by how many tears I shed last night. Its hurting me until now. But I promised myself I wont cry this time. It will not gonna help me moving on.

Its so easy to forgive as for me, but its too hard to forget everything that has been said and done. The lies coming from someone who uses someone to save herself from being judge.

Its really frustrating me that I've trust them long enough then they'll gonna tell you something you can't even take. And I still loved them. God knows I've loved them though we are all flawed, reckless and poor.

In my entire life this is one of the so many dramas I have.

I know this is half of what others have.

And I don't lose hope because I am strong. God is with me all the time.

He listens very well to me.

I will pray hard until I will forget what happened.

I will still keep praying for my Family, for him.

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