JustBhem

I quote " One word frees us all weight and pain in Life, that word is LOVE."  What a wonderful feeling it is to feel love and be loved in return. It such a blessing for me after all what I have been through.  I know this is not yet my happy ending but I know deep down inside me He is the one that I will love to get old with. Sound so awkward but its true and the hell I care. *wink* October 04, 2012 > that's our 34Th Monthsary. Its memorable for me because this is the first time that we are able to celebrate it with his own penny. I really do have an ideal date kind of thing. Like dinner in a fancy Resto bar with a nice ambiance, reggae songs on top of the beat. That would be wonderful!  But that's not what I thought its gonna be. We simply do our thing. Like going to a Mall, have dinner and watched movie. That's simple are we. Just like the old days when we were just friends. I laughed and smile remembering how our relationship grows. It's amazing a

You've just unfriend by someone! woah! what a slap in my face. It was June of this year. I have known her as my boyfriend's ex. She was the one who asked for a friend request. I did not know her existence until such time my boyfriend told me things about her. Like their break up and how it was ended. I was amaze or excited perhaps would be the best thing to describe it. Because for some reason I am excited to know her more. We became friends for almost a year, exchanging comments and sort of things, even thoughts of wisdom and  life experiences.  Until such time that I felt that awkward feeling towards her. She is not commenting anymore to all my wall post. Then she always ignored me already. I asked her one time by telling her I had a dream. I asked her if we are okay. She said we are okay. But then again that awkward feeling again.  Then she blocked me after few days. Its a slap and an insult to me. I know I don't have right to get mad but down deep in me I fee

October it is! two months to go and its Christmas once again. What would this Christmas bring to me? Hopefully forever Happiness and more life. I still don't have a clue.  Well, what I have been doing for the past days is nothing. Been laid for work for more than 10 days now and I feel so so strange and weaker. Anyhow, I will have to see my Doctor in just two days.  I have been thinking of this lately, wait! no I have been thinking for this the whole day. Its about a friend of mine and I can even think about it if we are lovers or not. A lot of things happened before ( way back the old days though ).  I am able to view his wife's Facebook account just awhile ago. I even send a friend request not thinking of what would be the outcome. I just feel that I need to say sorry for him, I know I owe him a sorry but he never text me anymore. After I said something else to him that make him mad or sad.  I don't want to be a home wrecker nor someone I don't want to be. I w