JustBhem

How long will you fight for love? After series of finding the answer about the question. I found myself tangled in the middle of a situation where my brother has an involvement. It all started when my Brother was left by his suppose to be wife over another scumbag. Well, who wants to have a husband who don't know how to work for his family? My Brother who apparently know nothing was left, with their baby. He raised his son very well until he found his self looking at nowhere and feeling so miserable about what happened to his life. I saw his suffering and even if he doesn't talk much about his own battle, I sense that he is suffering too much that he could not bare. Until he found another subject for his painful relationship. I love my brothers and I hate seeing them suffering from an unwanted life. But who am I to choose for them who to love? I don't even know their likes. Anyway, He never introduced the new found love to us for the thought that we will agai...

Write Something? As I was checking my phone. I saw this notes apps and ask me to write something. Then all of sudden it reminds me that I need to post something here in this side of the world. I had a successful treatment last night. Though I kinda not feeling well but I tried to skip the feeling just to get in time with my session. At the center were few of the patients waiting for each turn. Same familiar faces. I drew my encouragement smile to my co-patients to let them know that everything will be okay and will fell better during our session. I'm still coughing and felt that glutinous phlegm under my troath. It's awful, I know, that is why I really don't like having a cough. I tried to be calm despite of the struggle I encountered on my way to the center. I felt I'm going to die with my heavy breathing. And as always, I went to the chapel in the hospital to talk to God to guide me during my session. My session end at exactly 10:15 PM. I rested for 15 mns ...

It took me less than a month of not being here. And in this moment, I felt the need to update the whatsoever kind of battle I have since I brought this blog to life. Others may find it not so informative because I am a trying hard blogger. And who cares? If I am a trying-hard-blogger! I live for myself, and for pleasuring myself. Okay. Stop.. What else am I going to write here? Well, for the last 3 months, I had a successful treatment. There is a little problem about my blood pressure in which I can keep up. It just a matter of taking all those prescribed medicines I have. I celebrated my 32nd Birthday with Family in the beach. Of course with the help of my relatives for their donations or whatever you call it. And in that simple gathering, I am so grateful. What else? Hmm. My cousin who I thought will be working in Japan came back. They only have a visiting visa thats why. My Brother who still on drugs and with his slut girlfriend is still out of control and still chooses t...