JustBhem

I'm responsible for my actions. Whatever words I utter I am responsible. I'm not blaming anyone for saying those words. I have all the right and I know I am in the position to get mad. I'm also the victim of this charade which some people are playing like a pro.  Everyone like me deserve to tell the truth and they need to listen. I'm not just other people.  I'm one of them.  Its saddened me after what I heard from someone I always look up to not just when I was a kid, even when I'm this age. I always prayed for his safety. The idea of having a perfect family is washed away by how many tears I shed last night. Its hurting me until now. But I promised myself I wont cry this time. It will not gonna help me moving on.  Its so easy to forgive as for me, but its too hard to forget everything that has been said and done. The lies coming from someone who uses someone to save herself from being judge.  Its really frustrating me that I've trust them long ...

I stayed all day thinking what to write. Since I'm kinda sad so I need to embrace the moment writing the what looks like to be an awful realization that this so called "my past" keeps invading my thought. Yes! He is! By the way, there's no internet connection while writing this piece. So I'm afraid it will not be publish or maybe later.  He sometimes comes in my dreams, like we used to be together.  He invades my troubled thought whenever I feel like crying.  Why? Why is it always comes whenever I feel defeated or alone? Why? when in fact I could not see him in flesh, or hold him next to me.  Its just a sad realization that I'm just messing my mind for all the troubles I have.  I know this ain't right because I have the other one, the future I may call.  Is this normal? Or what?! Oh by the way, the internet connection is back now and I think I will publish this one in a moment.  Is this called cheating? or am I damned again for loving someo...

Bhem You are the apple of my eyes Even if apples were the cause of sin You are the flower that so nice Even if your thorns hurts me within.  You are the sweetest lover And your sweetness caresses my heart You are the perfect kisser And your kisses gives me an art Though the love that we have Is a fault for them But I hope from above It's okay for Him. And if our Love turn to ashes I'll always remember your Love, Hugs and Kisses And though our hearts far from each other I will love you B-H-E-M now and forever.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  Lovely Lady C aresses that I've offered to thee H eartily given with no lie A nd the joyfulness that we taste and see T hrough the days that ...