Thats when I thought of DYING..

Feb 21, 2011 ( Monday )

I was awake, percieved by the light coming from the window. I get up then I feel the vexation.
I sleep back thinking that it will cease at least a little. At 11:20 , I woke up again and this time
its really annoying and so damn hurt. I feel my head is thumping wild harder. Then I was thinking
that this is it. This is the day that I need to see the Doctor. I can't get up because of the dizziness I felt.
Its harrowing and I can't even go down stairs to eat.

Afternoon, I tried myself to be lull and familiarize the way home to my mother. Then at first I tried to be
soothe and poise. A mother really knows there is something wrong with her siblings. My mother asked me, You
dont look good, are you okay?. I said you can tell it mom that Im not okay and Im discontent.

I was rushed to the near Hospital. As usual, nurses took VS thats what they called it. You know the thing
get your Blood pressure and the work. I feel at least homey. My mother who was there and him too.
They agreed to have me restraine so that Doctor check my stats.

Then there I was confined for 4 days. You know it sucks taking those meds.
And now, Im a little bit okay.
soon I'll be kicking some ass..

Have a Good one everybody..

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