I am back after decade.

I'm back after months of being away from here. Well, I feel oblige to write here once again for I don't want this blog to turn to ash. This has been my zen for so many years. And it is so nice to be back once again.

I have so many stories and happenings I want to share here.

I have an iPhone now. Thanks for a friend who gave me this piece of heaven. I cannot afford to buy this even in my dreams and so grateful that this friend who is very generous and kind gave it to me.

I still don't like my mother. She never change and I doubt she will. And I am trying to understand her now. But there are still days I hated her for being so insensitive and dishonest. I'm still praying that she will change for the better.

I am still on HD (HemoDialysis) and there is this one time I had a worst after session feels. Like I keep vomiting and I get sick. And it was only for one day. Still thankful though nothing serious happen to me.

I have a huge problem at the moment. Our comfort room is a mess. Like a total wrecked. We are not using it for the mean time because the drainage has problem. And I used to go to the public comfort room to do my waste. It is very hassle for my part but at the moment that's the least I can do. Hopefully it will fix soon.

We have another kid living here and he is Basty's older brother. He lives here for the moment because no one will look after him. I kinda don't like the boy because of his being bossy. And I know one day I can get use to it. For the mean time I just need to strengthen my patience for the sake of Basty.

What else? I think that's it for now. I am surely will be back for more.

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Room Issues..

Father bear is almost done fixing my room. The only problem is the wall. I really need to do something to my wall because it will help me brighten up my day every time I wake up, but I'm having trouble which one should I pick. I was thinking of a rasta color room, that makes my room colorful and for sure it will spread good vibes. I also like sky blue and baby pink room, more like of a teen though. Anyway, I have some photos here that might help me choose the best before going any further.. This is how it will look like if in case I want to paint it like this. It's awesome! It will really describe me being a fan of rasta culture. Don't mind the bed because I can't afford it, just imagine the color of the wall. It looks refreshing, right? It will help me probably to enlighten my day in case bad vibes is about to open. What say you? The last one is this, baby pink color wall. So girly, and teen spirited atmosphere. Again, don't mind the bed,...

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Overflowing

It must be great if I am, but I'm not. Now I believe I was born for this. Health is always been an issue to me since last year. I thought this year will give me luck, unfortunately it's still the same as last year. I mean I can easily get cough and flu, and the worst is, it will never get easily be treated. Like it will last a week or two. Also money issue. Of course it is. I should be happy because I can get help from my Fraternity but it's not enough. I mean if you sum it up it's not enough for my daily medications. And it doesn't mean I am not thankful. I am. Okay. One of my friend stop her assistant for me. It makes me sad because it helps a lot, and I do understand her. She also need to feed her family here. Now I don't know how to start. I'm thinking to go back to work. Maybe that's the last thing I need to do, to supply my needs and my treatment. For now I still need to get this bloated tummy away first before I hit the ran way.

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