JustBhem

Life is made up of some happy moments and some sad ones. Neither can one have a life that has only joyous moments, nor is it possible for you to have only grief in your life. Just like two sides of a coin, life also presents us with two sentiments - happiness and sorrow. It is how much are we able to revel in happiness and how quickly we get over the sorrow that decides how we live the moments in our life. While some people suffer from distress silently, others pen it down in words, thus trying to ease the pain a little. A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go. Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault. Staying with someone you really love even if you know its better letting go is like standing under the rain…It felt so good but you know its not right... For all sa...

So its been 3 years now that I haven't got myself reunited with the pain anymore.  Though I know that the life I have i'll be still walking along with them. After the healing process. I feel so brand new. Its like a new life within me is pumping up for joy.  Yes! I'm into LOVE once again. I can say that life is indeed full of surprises.  For the past 7 months of defining life after death. I found happiness and fullness at the same time.  I am happy because someone makes me happy. I am smiling because someone makes me beautiful in my own way. Love thought me to be fair. That awful feeling is not lingering anymore. Its like I'm in full blossom once again.  I know that along with my stiff journey there would be a straight path to my contentment. I know its not gonna happen now but I believe one day I will. Its not gonna be easy but I will face it with him.  What I'm going to do now is to enjoy life's blessings with him. We'll enjoy life together....

I'm listening to Tori Amos, Sleeps with Butterflies. While listening, I found myself envisage that I'm no longer sleeping with butterflies anymore.  I'm no longer grasping the awful feeling of pain. Its like I am free of worries that pain wont hurt me anymore. I can now breathe the freshest air.  For the past 2 years, I can tell that I no longer seeing the appalling pieces of my shattered dreams. I'm so thankful for the new found freedom within me. Its like a free bird. A flower that wherever the wind blows that's where my petals falls.  There's more to life if you let yourself see it with your eyes wide open.  If someone hurt you, don't take it as if your life ends there. Everything happens for a reason, maybe that reason is for you to look at the blazing side of your own choice. Your own life. Life teaches us to be strong, to bend, to make use of our knowledge. Life is never easy, its always associated with pain. Just like your Mother gave birth to ...

Its been awhile since I haven't written anything here.  After taking time to open this blog, it reminds me that I need to fill up the space.  To start with. Actually I don't know where I should start.  Anyway, I didn't know how it happened. It just happened so fast like a lightning bolt.  There was me and there was him.  Do I need to say more? Such a wonderful year to start with my new life.  Having someone who can fill up the space in your heart is such a blessing. Who says that God wont hear our prayers? He answered mine.  My God didn't forsaken me after all what I've been through.  For all the troubles I have from the past it pays a lot if you're patient enough to pray.  For whatever reason answered my prayers, I will forever cherish.  Bhem08